Fresh Roses In My Garden Need The Rain

“Jadi apa guna kami?”

How foolish I am to absorb anything with my own. So stupid and selfish of me.

Problem happen for a reason, we all aware of that right? But sometimes, just sometimes when it hit the right spot of your heart and break it apart what makes it extra painful. Even a painkiller I doubt will even work. Truly is, I have a difficult time last week and one of those morning I even think to take my own life. I know I know, but dont worry here I am, healthy and even better. I finally feel better, after those burden, and constantly I begin to feed myself with positive vibes.

I feel lucky tho to be a muslimah, where I rise performing salah and pray to Allah Almighty, without His guide I’m totally lost.

People said depression does not discriminate, and it was another form of deep sadness. When other people think that you just need your time but not even a smile can make it better. You feel self guilt, stuck in somewhere, extra foolish, extra fear of everything. Well at least I have been through that experience. And what Im gonna say about that not how to handle it but how to realize, that you still have a chance, to get out from that depression situation.

Trust In Allah – ketika kita berjalan menuju Allah, Dia sudah berlari menuju kita. Dia sangat dekat dihati yang even kita pun tak faham. Dia kan Pemilik Hati. πŸ™‚

I also share my feeling on spaces I never shared before, and Alhamdulillah due to the respond I have some this tiny bright hope, that I can be apart from this miserable feeling. What Im trying to say, keep communicate with every person who loves you and always be on your side whenever you feel slightly away. This world does not that cruel to leave you alone. πŸ™‚

I just write some things on here to remembering this moment. A situation that I thought will be my final battle, but the world have so much to offer and its our job to accept it pieces by pieces. At least, there are always hope. That everybody can be live into fullest whenever we feel in content and treat every problem as a tiny pieces of cakes. Expensive but edible.

Cheers. Not the least nor the last.Β 

P/s Have you heard songs uploaded on You Tube by Apeiron? I swear the playlist bring the feelings of staying in old bookstore reading and reading and forget about the world. Oh my. Makes me fall in love with reading all over again.Β 

 

Welcome Into Bookish World

  • Fix me in this path ya Allah.
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Kau kena faham, untuk berada di jalan yang kau pilih, untuk mengejar impian, tak semua akan faham bagaimana kau menjalankannya.
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Nasihat aku pada diri sendiri, keep moving on and teruskan berdoa in every step we take. Percaya dengan sebulat tekad, bahawa jalan terbaik bukanlah yg pada akhirnya berjaya, tapi pada proses kau mengenal Majikan Kau yang sebenarnya. Indeed He is Capable of Everything.
  • Izinkan aku membaca untuk seribu tahun lama lagi.
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Im out of words but soon im gonna post my book haul in my blog. 😁😁
  • What if, you are a ghostwriter. What it felt to write something for someone as themself and they take the credit? .
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This is indeed a digging the truth in a very deep way kind of writing. .
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I manage to visit a bookXcess outlet on Fahreinheit (after accidently mistook their warehouse an outlet πŸ˜…πŸ˜…πŸ˜…). And i'm both excited and amaze on how low all the books prices was. Due to my tight budget Im very glad to have some new books haul to bring back to KK and living with the most relaxing time of my life - reading.
  • Once I've been told about how reading can makes us learn new things, so that we can learn more words, so then we can express what we feel in the form of writing. .
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Reading and writing both have been my theraphy, I thought that it can save me from the pressure and exhausting feeling from what I do everyday.
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It do sometimes. .
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#bookblogger
  • I need to admit that I found Donatella perspective was way too adventerous compared to Scarlett. πŸ˜‡ #legendary #stephaniegarber .
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I keep forgetting about whom is whom from Caraval and I feel a little bit lost learning where Dante comes from πŸ˜‚ Hence I put Caraval on my next list just to recap what actually happen. .
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As the lovey dovey thing I prefer Tella dilemma in choosing love rather than Scar. .
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Q: #teamTella or #teamScar?
  • Akhirnya aku membaca buku ini dipandu emosi diluar kewarasan. 
Rare species yang amat, one of its kind. Never in my life I stumble into this kind of reading. .
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Tak tahu nak nangis atau nak ketawa. πŸ˜‚