Coffee Talk : I Can Choose Who I Want To Be

I rarely have this thought but who else here get so busy with their life and often takes the time for ourselves for granted.

Most people think that being alone was being away from humans and gadgets, but surprisingly this are the time when you have so many ideas you want to throw it out all at once. This is happening to me right now.

As I sat on Starbuck reading my weekly book to read (currently : Someone’s in My Head by Steven Steel) a Wattpad debut writer.

Then I thought for myself…

I actually had been dnf (did not finish and didnt want to continue) this book after reading ACOWAR. Funny how our brain cant switch quickly between a book. I used to feel that this book will not bring the hype compared to ACOWAR. Pfft how cheap my thinking at that time.

So, I remember those time I discover who Anna Lee used to be..

If you are a Prolog Media fan like Siqahiqa, you’ll know she’s a fan of Anna Lee – a malay writer. Anna Lee’s pieces can be put into a not average story that you’ll read from a malay writer. I meant, if you are being sceptical (like me) believing that all malay novel consist of old malay sinetron (half side love story, love between upper and lower class people, kahwin kontrak, etc), well Anna Lee is one of a kind. I heard (or read) from Siqah that her pieces got that plot twist jackpotย ๐Ÿ˜ย – I devote my life on a plot twist book.

Ahh well, so I wanted to read her pieces, as always I searched on Goodreads to see what other people said about her books. Suprisingly, she’s also known as Julia Esqa, one of the writer from a my childhood book I’ve read. Puteri Karla.

Reminiscing Puteri Karla stories..

I cant really recall what the book was about, but yes it is a simple book and does not really met my expectation level in fantasy. At that time im not really an avid reader so I cant compare much and just giving away stars without saying about it in my own perspective (you’ll know this if you read my review on the link below). That time my perspective was driven from other people review. I may say I like this book at first but then whenever I saw how other people review it (bashing etc) I’ll say the opposite of my first choice. Lols, im an easy perspective changer person. ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Oh here’s my review for the book : Book Review : Puteri Karla, it was written six years ago. Ha ha ha, so pardon my childish self.

So thats concludes what happen of my mind..

I always have this uneasy feelings especially when I become a Ceo’s, I always doubt myself for being a good one compared to my partner. I know there is always room for improvement, but the ways is often uncertain, it takes hardship and pain (a lot) to achieve it. I even wonder myself will all this worthy at the end? Will I even safe here and hereafter? Sigh..

People make decision. Once I thought Julia Esqa will never be a good writer judging from how she writes Puteri Karla. But look where she is right now – im proud of her tho she never knew who I was.

The first step always the hardest. In example here the current book I read, I may compared it with other book just by judging its first chapter. But, my judges and my view will not effect the writer to become better in the future – if s/he have a focus vision.

We all have our point of start somewhere, always a beginner at somewhere, but sooner or later we will become skilled in our profession. A professional begins with an armature themselves.

So why not begin now? Its hard, of course its hard, but the end? Its always worth it if we can give something to the community.

That is our very own experience.

I can be whoever I want, I can be a designer, I can be a writer, a full time blogger. But at this era, I decide to be a Ceo’s, the kind of person who understand her flaw but continue to learn and do her best in every circumstances. Its okay to hurt a bit, cause who doesnt?

We are on our own time line after all.

 

Welcome Into Bookish World

  • Fix me in this path ya Allah.
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Kau kena faham, untuk berada di jalan yang kau pilih, untuk mengejar impian, tak semua akan faham bagaimana kau menjalankannya.
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Nasihat aku pada diri sendiri, keep moving on and teruskan berdoa in every step we take. Percaya dengan sebulat tekad, bahawa jalan terbaik bukanlah yg pada akhirnya berjaya, tapi pada proses kau mengenal Majikan Kau yang sebenarnya. Indeed He is Capable of Everything.
  • Izinkan aku membaca untuk seribu tahun lama lagi.
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Im out of words but soon im gonna post my book haul in my blog. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜
  • What if, you are a ghostwriter. What it felt to write something for someone as themself and they take the credit? .
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This is indeed a digging the truth in a very deep way kind of writing. .
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I manage to visit a bookXcess outlet on Fahreinheit (after accidently mistook their warehouse an outlet ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…). And i'm both excited and amaze on how low all the books prices was. Due to my tight budget Im very glad to have some new books haul to bring back to KK and living with the most relaxing time of my life - reading.
  • Once I've been told about how reading can makes us learn new things, so that we can learn more words, so then we can express what we feel in the form of writing. .
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Reading and writing both have been my theraphy, I thought that it can save me from the pressure and exhausting feeling from what I do everyday.
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It do sometimes. .
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#bookblogger
  • I need to admit that I found Donatella perspective was way too adventerous compared to Scarlett. ๐Ÿ˜‡ #legendary #stephaniegarber .
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I keep forgetting about whom is whom from Caraval and I feel a little bit lost learning where Dante comes from ๐Ÿ˜‚ Hence I put Caraval on my next list just to recap what actually happen. .
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As the lovey dovey thing I prefer Tella dilemma in choosing love rather than Scar. .
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Q: #teamTella or #teamScar?
  • Akhirnya aku membaca buku ini dipandu emosi diluar kewarasan. 
Rare species yang amat, one of its kind. Never in my life I stumble into this kind of reading. .
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Tak tahu nak nangis atau nak ketawa. ๐Ÿ˜‚