I Am A Girl, Born With EXTRA Complicated Deep Thoughts

Salam,

Me often spending every second of my times by being jealous to other people achievement. #lol. Aku akui ia bukanlah satu benda yang patut dibanggakan, but the truth is, yup memang aku selalu jeles dengan mereka yg dapat apa yg aku tidak dapat. I meant kenapa aku tidak dapat apa yg mereka dapat? Kenapa aku rasa aku banyak ketinggalan sedangkan (maybe) tahap usaha aku lebih tinggi dari mereka? Sedangkan dalam hidup aku (maybe), aku melangkah pelahan sepelahannya supaya aku merasai dunia sekeliling, supaya aku tidak missed out every excitement yg sepatutmya aku kecapi. Tapi bila melihat kejayaan yg orang lain yg kehidupan dia mungkin sama dgn aku, sesungguhnya aku rasa sangat ketinggalan dalam kemajuan hidup. Dunia seolah-olah menghukum aku. 
Credits [here]
Apa maknanya membaca buku sepanjang masa tetapi aku tidak maju kehadapan? Apa makna aku berusaha apabila acapkali berakhir dengan kekecewaan yg memakan jiwa? Apa maknanya aku bangun awal pagi tetapi ends up doing nothing before bedtime? Adakah aku tidak bersyukur dengan apa yg aku ada? PERHAPS. Dan perhaps yang itu sebenarnya mengundang bahaya. 
Sesungguhnya aku buta. Dan aku akui.  

Aku bersyukur kerana masih diberi peluang untuk mencurahkan idea dalam penulisan kali ini. Aku bersyukur dengan percapaian yang aku kecapi sekarang, meskipun hasilnya hanya sedikit yg boleh dinampak dengan mata kasar, sekurang-kurang nya diri aku lebih maju kehadapan slightly berbanding kelmarin. Aku bersyukur kerana aku masih mempunyai kedua ibu bapa yang meskipun sibuk dengan kerja mereka pasti ada masa, masih berdedikasi terhadap aku dalam segala bentuk facilities. Aku bersyukur kerana mempunyai ruang berteduh, mempunyai komputer riba dan mempunyai ruang utk aku menulis.
Aku bersyukur meskipun pada malam ni aku sebenarnya buka komputer riba dengan perasaan yang berbelah bahagi, dan tidak tahu apa yang ingin ditulis namun jari jemari aku masih terus bergerak kencang di atas papan keyboard mencurahkan setiap perkataan yang terlintas. Aku bersyukur, dan sesungguhnya itu benar dalam segala kebenaran yang ada.
That is the way I am, starting with talking bad to myself then pujuk balik. Kalau bukan kita yg stand up kan sendiri diri kita siapa lagi akan buat? Semuanya bermula dari dalam. I guess, apa yg aku tulis malam ni cukup untuk aku berfikir pada esok hari dan tersenyum. All of this cemburu-ing things will happen again tomorrow and the day after (I am 110% positive about that), but after all of that my day will end up by lots of gratitudes towards my self.
I hate being depress.
That is why when I get sad, I stop and be happy instead.
P/S : YOLO. 😉 

Welcome Into Bookish World

  • 5 🌟 review up on the link 👆
.
.
.
I remember how its stabs my heart several times and kept me with a weird feeling lurking in my stomach.
.
.
.
My advice, please do not read this book on the public area as you'll grin like a mad person before u even realize it AND do not read it on the late night, where everyone had fall asleep, the eerie side of this book may freak u out.
.
.
.
Well done @yangszechoo for the writing 😘❤️
  • 📖3✨ Review 📖
I shall say only three words for this book : short, fastfoward and paranormal.
.
.
. 
The story involving two malay detectives pushed into a tangled world of paranormal serial killer, a vampire like. But what matter the most, it has a connection from their ancestor. .
.
. 
There were still much hole on the plot as there were several unanswered questions at the end of the book. Still, the crucial questions had all been covered, so that not gonna be a problem.
.
.
.
Its also have a plot twist which I did not expect nor do I excited about. Its just so-so.
.
.
.
The ending for me does not satisfied as there are so much 'Why this and that?'.
.
.
.
But yeah still a nice fast foward reading, this first published book for RAM Typewriter gotta glued you till the end with the curiousity bait in every pages.
.
.
.
P/s : Are you a fan of RAM? Have you read this book? Or what was your fave RAM' s book?
P/s : Im not really a fan of RAM, but my mom is. Only she always read the first and the last chapter😂
#ramleeawangmurshid #kasyafain
  • Today Gratitude : To all the follower of this IG account. .
.
.
As an introvert, i found its really hard to interact with other human being because of the shyness been accumulated inside me. I have no other words to decribe how meaningful other was to me. The reader, the follower or even the bypasser of this bookstagram pages, i would like to sincerely thank you for doing so. I pray for your everlasting wellness. May the goodness always in your favor ❤️.
.
.
.
Dont let it stop here. Pass your own gratitude to other. Spread the positivity so there is no way for a blues monday.
  • Fix me in this path ya Allah.
.
.
Kau kena faham, untuk berada di jalan yang kau pilih, untuk mengejar impian, tak semua akan faham bagaimana kau menjalankannya.
.
.
Nasihat aku pada diri sendiri, keep moving on and teruskan berdoa in every step we take. Percaya dengan sebulat tekad, bahawa jalan terbaik bukanlah yg pada akhirnya berjaya, tapi pada proses kau mengenal Majikan Kau yang sebenarnya. Indeed He is Capable of Everything.
  • Izinkan aku membaca untuk seribu tahun lama lagi.
.
.
.
Im out of words but soon im gonna post my book haul in my blog. 😁😁
  • What if, you are a ghostwriter. What it felt to write something for someone as themself and they take the credit? .
.
This is indeed a digging the truth in a very deep way kind of writing. .
.
I manage to visit a bookXcess outlet on Fahreinheit (after accidently mistook their warehouse an outlet 😅😅😅). And i'm both excited and amaze on how low all the books prices was. Due to my tight budget Im very glad to have some new books haul to bring back to KK and living with the most relaxing time of my life - reading.